22 September 2011

In Loving Memory

Last night at 10:51 p.m I received a phone call from my mom saying that my grandmother had passed away.
The first emotion I felt was disbelief. I knew my grandma was sick. I knew she was in the ICU, but I didn't know her cancer was stage IV, not stage I, or that her organs were shutting down. Only after I was told she'd died did I know this.
The tears came next as I tried to make sense of it all. My crying mother, her voice unusually high, described how it happened: The doctors told my grandmother she was dying and there was nothing they could do, but she didn't believe them. She'd fight this. She'd get better. She said good-bye before falling asleep surrounded by her loved ones, fully expecting to see them again. She never woke up. Her tired heart slowed until it stopped beating. My mom held her hand till the last beat.
Grandma's death was a horrible one, long and painful. I'm glad she isn't suffering any longer, but I'm sad that my youngest children won't remember Great-Grandma's high-pitched gasp of laughter or her firm kisses on the mouth. I'll miss both.
I cannot express how grateful I am that I know this is not the end. I will see my grandma again.
I look forward to celebrating her life with my family and her friends at the funeral. Her name was Joy, and she was that—a joy.

Joy Stone October 26, 1937—September 21, 2011

32 comments:

Jenny S. Morris said...

I am so sorry for you loss. My thoughts and prayers are with your family. May you be able to celebrate her life together, during this time.

Angie Cothran said...

Emily - I'm so sorry :( Your grandma sounds lovely. Knowing they are in a better place helps but it doesn't make us miss them less. What a beautiful tribute.

Rebecca Ryals Russell said...

My condolences. You wrote a loving tribute.

Christine Rains said...

My sympathies to you and your family. That was a lovely tribute.

Chantele Sedgwick said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I'll keep you and your family in my prayers. *hugs*

Gina said...

My condolences, Emily. I hope your memories bring your comfort.

Sarah Pearson said...

Emily, sending you more hugs. Love to you and your family x

ladonna watkins said...

I'm sorry. I'm sending you a hug. I'll keep your family in my prayers.

Michael Offutt said...

So sorry for your loss.

KarenG said...

What a sad day. She sounds like a wonderful person.

The Golden Eagle said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Beautiful tribute.

Abby said...

This is a beautiful post. I wish she was someone that I knew. I am sorry for the loss, but glad you know that you will see her again one day. That is such a comfort. Her firm kisses and high-pitched laughter live on. :) Lots of love.

shielacblank said...

I am so sorry to hear about your grandmother's passing. Praying and thinking of you and your family. You did her a great service with your heartfelt words. Hugs!!

E.R. King said...

To those who don't have personal e-mails for me to reply to, THANK YOU for your kind thoughts! I appreciate your support at this time.

I promise I'll be back to writing/blogging talk soon. : )

Angela Brown said...

This is a heart-felt tribute. No words can express my understanding of your loss so I'll just send my prayers to you and your loved ones during this time of rightful grief.

You have lots of love from me and the rest of us who care for you in the writing community.

E. Arroyo said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Freya Morris said...

*hug* I had a similar thing happen with my Granddad recently. Family seem to like to protect their children even when they're grown up.

It was devastating but in a sense I could see the beauty in all the grief. People hurt because they love someone so much and that is amazing.

Like you say, it isn't the last time you'll see her. And if she's anything like my granddad, then she'll still be working magic around you for a long time to come.

Christine Murray said...

She sounds wonderful. So sorry for your loss x

Deana said...

Oh Emily I am so sorry for your loss. You broke my heart with your tribute. It was beautiful! What a fighter she seemed to be. I'm sure she will be terribly missed. Hugs...

Talli Roland said...

Oh, I'm so sorry. What a wonderful tribute - I can see in the photo she was indeed full of joy. Hugs.

Maggie said...

I'm so sorry. Emily. She would be proud of your tribute.

J. A. Bennett said...

As they say in Second Hand Lions - "She died with her boots on." Sounds like she was an amazing person. Just think of the wonderful stories you'll be able to tell your children. She wanted to fight - and that's what counts. So sorry for your loss.

BornStoryteller said...

My condolences. Lovely write up.

Meredith said...

I'm so, so sorry. That's such a hard thing to get through, I know. She sounds like an amazing woman.

Christa said...

Oh Emily, I'm sorry to hear this. But what a lovely homage.

lindy said...

It's always so hard to know what to say at a time like this. No one right word to take away the pain. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Karen Peterson said...

I'm sorry for your loss. I hope your family is doing all right.

Joyce Lansky said...

I'm sorry about your loss. You just need to remember the wonderful times you had with her. I never knew any of my grandparents. :(

Joyce
http://joycelansky.blogspot.com

L.A Speedwing said...

I am so sorry for your loss, Emily. I hope you're surrounding with love and moral support in this difficult time. You certainly have lots of bloggers who care for you.

Peggy Eddleman said...

My deepest sympathies! She sounds like a wonderful lady. I absolutely love the name Joy.

Cynthia Chapman Willis said...

I am so sorry and you have my sympathy. It's incredibly difficult to lose someone so special. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

Kaylee Baldwin said...

I'm so sorry about your grandma. It's so painful to lose those we love. I hope you can find peace in this difficult time.